Prancing and Sucking

I quit my job, sold my home, and drove around the country in the summer and fall of 2006, training BJJ, finding myself, and landing in LA. I still travel a lot and get to train in amazing places. Some of my friends are irritated that I "prance" around the world and think I "suck" for doing so.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Update: If anything, things are worse

Thanks for the kind words, everyone. I think the pinkeye is getting worse, although I am taking the drops diligently. It HURTS now, whereas before it was just uncomfortable. I cried in front of Jen, Pat, and Jen's parents today because I feel horrible about feeling horrible and also about potentially exposing them to my sicknesses. It was really irresponsible of me to come here; I should have stayed home. I guess I wasn't thinking clearly. They are being incredibly understanding, but that's because they are awesome. So they are off doing things and I am here resting and bitching.

Another horrible thing is that I'm going to miss the grand opening of Darren's academy in San Francisco. I called him today to tell him I probably won't make it, and he was disappointed. No more disappointed than I am. Please help me congratulate Darren on his big news! Check him out at http://www.ftcombatclub.com, and pay him a visit in San Francisco. I'm so happy for you, Darren! And I can't wait to visit when I'm not a walking epidemic.

Aside to reyes: Please help me understand what any of this has to do with my biological clock.

7 Comments:

At 8:05 PM, Blogger Squarf said...

Sorry to be that blunt with my previous comment dealing with sickness and responsibility.

I hope you feel better soon... and a note about the pink eye...

I had it a few months ago and my normal training partner wouldn't train for me until I hadn't had any signs of it for a week. I had gotten over my cold and then I wanted to train, but I couldn't because of the darn eye! And then because of his fear, haha.

I hope you feel much better soon.

 
At 10:00 PM, Blogger Thomas Lovely said...

pink eye sucks. looking forward to your rva seminar.

 
At 11:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

The jiu jitsu news circuit sucks. NOW I learn BC is opening a gym in NorCal....

If it wasn't for you Val, we wouldn't know no steenkin' jiu jitsu news, or wedding news for that matter either.

 
At 11:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Eye, what eye? Who cares about your eye? Tough it out and wear an eyepatch and train like the rest of us!

NOT.

Get well quick.

 
At 11:40 AM, Anonymous walker said...

hey Val, get back to the (or a) doc if the drops aren't working or are making it worse. I had pinkeye in college and the drops rx'd seemed to make it worse..The doc tried a different med on me and it cleared up fast.
Also, I am going to vote that poop, not ambivalence about competing, caused this. Any chance your eye was at some point exposed to a surface that at some point someone's butt was dragged across. Like some sort of athletics mat-type surface? Like a mat?
Get well soon.

 
At 10:22 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Even I (not the reyes) can figure out what he's driving at. You push yourself too hard because you feel your impending mortality.

You've got all the time in the world. And none. Enjoy life in this paradoxical state.

 
At 3:11 PM, Anonymous reyes said...

Admonishing Val

the pervading theme since 2006 has been "insecure,tired,misunderstood,disappointed,stressful situations,frustrated,struggling with body image,sad,lonely,depressed,etc....."

want to have a boyfriend..but put on muscles that you are afraid may turn off boys..

want to have babies....but train until amenorrhea sets in...

( a vision quest...with pink eye )

"holding on to expectations makes it impossible to truly live in the now"

jiujitsu is ALL about the now..no yesterday..no tommorrow..no self...just those 10 minutes of 'mushin no shin' bliss


that Pan Ams photo of you on the 2nd place podium platform..with no one on the first would be perfect for your books' cover photo....

and hopefully the last page of your book will show a completely different...picture

 

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